Friday, May 29, 2009 | By: Anita

Falling Behind


It's been a crazy time for me. As many will recall I chose to work at Huron Ridge Acres for the month of May, while their season is at one of it's peaks.

While I enjoy my time over there amongst the flowers, the staff and the welcoming atmosphere, I found myself falling behind around home. With lawn to mow, garden to plant, flowers beds to maintain, not to mention laundry, cleaning, cooking, baking, bookwork (which I am now officially behind 5 months) and still try to have time for me with reading and/or walking the dogs. without feelings of guilt. Did I mention that I also work 27 hours a week at the office? phew! just reading that makes me tired.

I used to think of myself as a fairly organized person but these days for every step forward I've taken, I end up taking two back. I'm not going to get very far ahead that way, am I? So, how does one manage it all?

I've been reading the book "Be Happy without being Perfect" by Alice Domar, in it she reminds those of us with perfectionist tendencies that 'perfection is the enemy of happiness' and that 'we're not perfect and guess what? we don't have to be'.

For those of you who do not struggle with this, you probably cannot empathize with me, but for those of you who check off one of these:
1. I'm constantly aware of what I eat.
2. I think less of myself when my home is cluttered.
3. My fear of doing a project poorly sometimes prevents me from getting started.
4. I find it difficult to forgive people who have wronged me.
5. I feel guilty taking time away from my children to do something special for me.
6. I find it hard to make big decisions.

probably understand how I feel.

I wonder how plausible the quote 'A place for everything and everything in its place' is when living with three men.

Blessings

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

well at least you can say your survived your CRAZY month...and can be grateful you do not have to work 2 jobs on a regular basis like some have to..(that not including your job as a mom)..
but if you have taught me anything is that the work at home will ALWAYS be there WAITING!!!!
hope you can find time for you...looking forwrd to our girls weekend
Blessings
Bliss