right here, right now

here is a hard place to be.

lots of times i find myself wishing for there and then,

dissatisfied with here and now.

here is where the dishes sits in piles and the work remains

unfinished and the relationships get strained.

there is where I am happier, skinnier, better.

and yet here is where i am called to live.

right here, in the now, living out each moment.

and when i get there,

i’ll look back here

and wish i hadn’t wished it away.

i know, because i do that now.

wish that the here that i wished away then was my here right now.

then and there will always seem smoother, easier, better.

except there is no JOY there.

the JOY is to be found in the here and now,

in the living out of every moment,

in the tasting of the sweetness that comes from being present.

and so, I strive to find contentment in the moments i’ve been given.

to wait on there and then until they become here and now,

and then cherish them as though they

were the only moments to be had.

life is meant to be lived here. 

now.

and when it’s done well,

there and then cannot possibly measure up.

 

Blessings